I’d make a lousy fundamentalist of any kind, and was probably born with negative capability http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Negative_capability and a tendency to daydream and contemplate life, skirting extremes, which makes my voice almost inaudible in a culture where sensation trumps. It also means I procrastinate on tasks that need doing, until a snag propels me to act.
One morning last week, easing myself into the day, the shirt I dusted in the cool morning air was trapped when I shut the back-door; next the sleeve of my pyjamas got caught while I closed the lid of my coffee tin. SNAGS – their repetition blinked a green light for associations and made me think of dreams, how they sneak into the daylight via signals. With only a vague memory of my dream, I followed an impulse to catch up on practical tasks round the house.
A shelf in my shed needed fixing. It had crashed, bringing down an array of cans, sprays and sealants. In the way one thing leads to another, I sorted and dumped stuff, and dumped some more – making space. Seized by the flow of action, I de-frosted the freezer, thinned the ivy round the shed, cleaned windows, filled a sack with confidential papers for shredding, loaded the washing machine and made some overdue phone calls … all amounting to what I call a BLITZ day.
Knocks from the dark, SNAGS, help me overcome procrastinations. BLITZ is how I operate to gain periods of laziness. I’ve learned to humour my inner driver (superego) and made peace with Lazy.
Dark of beginnings
Flees the meddler
The shrill demand
The noisy footfall
The sharp beams of
Dark folds its mantel
Round the dreamer
The shy nomad
The vague image
The tendrils of
A budding poem
Approach it softly
Like a lover
It may surprise
Or yield nothing …
After my Blitz day, a book came to mind, ‘Worlds in Collision’ (1950) by Immanuel Velikovsky. His research resulted in controversial astronomical theories about catastrophic events planet earth experienced over time, and how the human race was affected. Here a link to a 1972 Horizon documentary: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U18gMJXNyX8
He concluded that as a victim of amnesia, collective humanity is compelled to repeat and re-experiencing traumatic events, to aid, in a psycho dynamic sense, recovery through triggering repressed feelings, wake up, and learn to control the experiences. It’s a wider, thought provoking context for the contemplation of our human lot, which I leave to you, my readers, to explore.
On a smaller scale, we may have memories of being held in the womb and in the arms of our mother – or not. In either case, there are giants to overcome, grown-ups. One of the saddest things grown-ups do is deflating a child’s dreams and desires, talking down: Wait till you grow up. Life is tough etc. etc. It’s like telling a seed, ‘Don’t bother; you’re doomed from the start.’
The desire to be held equates home. The longing for a permanent home seems to motivate our actions in relation to food, shelter, competition, acquisition, power, money, knowledge or love, as well as being the impetus underlying the craving for prophets who promise salvation.
Fear of not being held, of having no claim on a place where it’s safe to rest when life gets tough, has made us inventive. We wall our interests, invest in insurances, wage war to protect what we identify with , or claim ownership of ideas, philosophies and creeds. Maintaining behaviours that keep familiar systems in place, we find it difficult to accept with sobriety that we are all in the same boat, that our ideas and identities are fleeting chimeras.
Imagine … wouldn’t it be wonderful to seek nothing and simply enjoy the miracle of living, and be like this child overcome by the mystery of rain? http://vimeo.com/84802749
There is an experience of home that tends to go unrecognised, hiding, as it does, between each breath, in dimensions beyond time. Such glimpses come and go, leaving a sense of union and connectedness while we’re tossed along the rapids of progress, inevitably bumping into obstacles – the snags of life signalling messages from the unseen.
The psyche is a bridge between inner and outer dimensions (the theme of my novels,) similar to the corpus callosum connecting our two brain halves. On good days I sense that in addition to existing in time, a part of me also resides in another frequency dimension, as a light-body, or soul, resonating in my body while I occupy it.
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A day, whether six or seven years ago or whether six thousand years ago, is just as near to the present as yesterday. Why? Because all time is contained in now. – Meister Eckhart
16 responses to “… a tribute to snags …”
another fascinating post. I particularly liked the final paragraph and can identify with that belief, feeling, sensation – whatever you might like to call it. Thanks for sharing this with us. I love the image of the old door.
Thanks Diane. The old door I found at the Cornish coast, probably in Moushole.
For me this has been such a bad day, I will have to re-read this on a better one when its deeper philosophy has a needle’s chance of penetrating.
Sending a warm hug, Philippa. Curl up with a cup of Rooibos Tea and Honey?
Bless you !
The snag, like the crochet, fabric of the day, blending and mending, ways and means.
Great link, the hook of a crochet, blending and mending the fabric 🙂
What a thought-provoking but also warm-hearted post. Just what I needed this morning.
Ah, thanks Katia ☼
Thank you Ashen for this thought-provoking and beautifully written post which I read a few days ago and have just re-read. The links I will watch when time permits.
I agree those snags pull us up short; obstacles; obstructions .. things to ponder as we remedy what needs remedy ..
Yes, the question of living in the now; powerful quote by Meister Eckhart …
I’m not so happy about ‘control our experiences’ when we relive and re-experience traumatic events. Why do we have to ‘control’ them? On another note, Freud wrote about ‘repetition compulsion’ i.e. that ‘old stuff’ keeps on surfacing when we repress them until such time as we re-live them and learn (esp learn) from them. The power of repressed material diminishes …
Thank you again.
Thanks for visiting, Susanne. I agree, ‘control’ is presumptuous and wishful for what, at best, amounts to a deeper understanding of psycho dynamic processes operating under the surface of our daily experience. The term was used in the 1972 Horizon documentary embedded in my post.
Thanks Ashen, I plan to listen in …
Thank you for all your shared wisdom Ashen. Special love to you from Alice
Thanks my dear friend. Best things to you ☼
You are the first person i have’ Facebooked’ so guess i am all grown up now!
🙂 Found you, invited you to be a friend. Good luck. Don’t go there too often, it’s a mad place.